i dont know what to do!!!!!!

i talked to my mom today i told her i need her and she say she was gonna call me everyday til sunday she tells me if she can come or not.... why???? all i needed was a yess baby!! i will go without hesitate to see u!!! cuz i know u need me there... but noooo.. she said she need to talk with my dad about it and for sure my dad wont agree any ways cuz he loves my mom to do him all... and what about me????... she is my mom and if im like this right now its due to those guys... that when i was there they didnt give me the support and love i needed....

and now what????? i got all the pills but im gonna buy more tomorrow... cuz i want more pills.... i dont wanna see the light ever never again.... but im scared at the same time.... but i cant be... i need to be strong just one more time...

and mom wont come, cuz she prefects my dad.... i knew it... im done now.... guess its over now...

and why still ppl reading on my blog and dont say nothing at all... why??? are they waiting just for me to write if i finally did it!?? its amazing that i got some followers waiting for my dead... great... its all i was waiting for...