every rose has a torn like every mother a daughter

Mom finally heard my voice after more than 6 years of praying, she is coming to stay with me for a while and giving me a lil pushing when its necessary… I wont be alone anymore for like a month.. but then, I donno… will I get better??? Will it help me out???? Will I trust her for first time in my life??? After 22 years old I can admit it here I don’t trust her at all but I need her cuz she’s my mom and I love my mom!!! And if I love her then I trust her, but I’ve never talked to her about my feelings, whatever feeling like me, or school , or guys, or anything at all but the things that I wanted… that’s gonna be new and hard at the beginning… but she is gonna give me the strength I need to recover, cuz my friends cant give it to me… and by the way, D is getting better now… finally out of the hospital with another new changes to make things right, she’s gonna be fine cuz she’s not alone and has her bf that love her so much and she has me too…

And who do I have???? She said I have her too… but for how long??? Im all the time worry about the future cuz im scared of it!!! After all I’ve been through… trying to be open and confidant is not easy anymore… at the end they leave or I leave so what’s the point?… better to close us and live like that for the rest of our lifes… anyways… that’s silly but its true, we need to protect ourselves anyhow

PS: im glad I write my posts in English cuz my parents were giving a big ass scoping out on my stuff again… internet huh? U sucks! Cuz there’s not privacy at all… but sometimes u open our eyes knowing that we are not alone after all…