Entre lluvia, truenos y tormentas

well im awared of not being the center of the universe, im just part of it! im not the only with problems, or shitty life, or the only one who makes mistakes.. im just one more human on the face of the earth...

what i've become after all those years after my last post, im just the one who still learning... learning sth new everyday, and my choices are being managed by me and controling by my brains... but im not efficient enough, i just another beginner... still making crap all around and have to clean it up all the time! til when am i gonna learn it all??? i just need to be more smart or clever.. but i am, just not for some other things tho!

what am i, now a days? i dont know! not yet! im still discovering myself, but aint it kinda late?? i should have done that before, but before i was running through the world without stopping!.. i wanted to walk away for everything at all... but on my path, once again, another big rock makes me fell down, cuz i didnt see it, i was runing too fast to figure out it was there... crappy motherfucker rock!!! u make me fell down and i got hurt! yah.. so badly, but nothing that the time cannot cure...

now, some months has passed out.. my big wound is getting healed, as a result the scar in few will show up, tho... actually im feeling its being created by my plaquets...

after that unfortunate time, i started walking again but not running of course, i gotta be more careful this time... im back in my path again cuz i must continue..

i donno where im going to, im just following the road... the land is so abrupted and i see a lot of things like gd and bad shits... sometimes i stop for helping but i cant stay there for a long time, i just dont like, i got bored after doing the same thing all over and over, so i leave the places most of the times when i started feeling tediousness.

moving on its sth i do it all the time, which its why i know a lot of things.. a lil bit of everything for having walked for some many places, since the most simple ones to the most sophisticated ones and to be honest i'd rather stay with the last one, but i just dont admited to all the ppl! even tho the simples ones are the most value and pure after all.

i still got problems getting along with ppl, i cant stand ppl for so long, i donno why... but i do depend of them sometimes.. i hate to depend of them but as i said its not all the time, hopefully

due to the fell down, fighting a war againts myself i got to be found, i was confronting myself for what ive done! (for not watching the bloody rock) well some ppl helped me to understand it wasnt my whole fault at all, the environment influenced on that too. Fine, but i screwed myself, i didnt mean to do it, just happened.

i wanna know whats next now!.. whats the next step besides walkin in the path... i need more action.. more answers... more things... more and more.... to have it all... but thats not right.. another bad decision? or this is a bad attitude?

walking it all darkness again??? Nah!!!! this times i got options... i only need to choose the right ones this time, with gd determination and calm, taking care of the consequences... and move forward...